au revoir

Hi, this is my story about someone I really love. He made me see the world with a new vision, and he also made me grateful that he was came into my life. I would never forget him, and so this is how its start..

He was.. well, I dont know why, but since the first time we met, seeing him made me feel the tons of feelings I cant ever found from anybody else. It was different.
He was the hardest and the most difficult people I have ever seen. The way how he's thought, no one really get what does he mean about. They actually understand, but then they cant found the world to explain it back. Not different with the feeling he gave me. If it was a kind of book, it is perfectly unreadable.
For me, he was the most friendly boy with a smart way to get peoples into him. If you havent know him yet, you cant never describe anything about him. Not even a bit. The way how he's talked, he's smiled, he's laughed, and how he's thought about is the most hardness think to be explain, in the best astonished way.
And one day, he came into my life when I was just about had a breakdown because of the boy I have adored once.
He came, just when I tried to found a new life and moved on. Then, he became the one that stoled my heart when its wont make a deal with anyone. When I mean anyone, it was really no one could made me fall for.
But it was him, the one who made me fall, really into him, and willing to do anything for him. I cant explain how, he just did.
My feelings are full of heart, breakdown, and the most of it turned into a pieces I cant fix anymore. I loved him, I still love him, and the only thing I would do without calls a question is love him.
I spent my whole day with tears for him and the holiday make it worst. I was lost for someone I loved, and now I have to reply it again.
I broken up, dude. Its only need to someone for give me another weight on my heart, and I'll over.
All of my friends gave me a sympathic but thats not what I want. The hurt and pain that cause from the love of my life will never remove as fast as I hope it to be. He was, and still, something I love, adore, need, want, and fear at one. And the day he gave me that word, I knew I was over. Never be the same, not even a little miss sunshine like I was with him.
I dont know how, but all of my friend's efforts have build me again. Not as perfect as before, but its still better.
Maybe I laughed in front of them, but no one know better that it was a fake, a mask than him.
And someday, when someone was tried to got me fell for him, he came again. He asks for how my things are going and finnaly he told me about the truth.of his feeling. I swear, that time, I cant believe for eveything.
He left me.. And that was just a lie?
He said he doesnt move on, and he wont. God, I am home. All of my hopes are growing strong and I queitly fixed by his words.
But maybe it wasnt our way to make it back. He want to move on, dude. Only if he cant for now.
Who knows how long he will be pretend like it?
And now, I standing here, waiting for him and still in love with him. Pathetic, I know. Hoping for something unsure.. But there's no something certain in the world anymore, right?
And like the first time. After we being parted, the feeling was still incredibly right. It still comforted and calm and full of peace and.. Like I said, still unreadable.
He is my bestfriend, feel so far away even if he's close. But for now, I am gratefull that I still can be close with him.
Some peoples says, if we are always in the same round with someone, then a love will be built again, no matter it has for a long time or not.
I mean, could he ever back for me? Just said it like I always pray for that, and now its granted.

and he is ..