buta

pagi ini tuhya, tumben cerah panas, matahari pagi pagi udah terik aja
dimuali dengan bismillah dan berdoa semua lancar..
pagi bangun tidur bikin air,nyiapin bekal makan,terus solat..
biar dilancarin gitu tanggal 18 novembernya-_-
nah selesai solat,begonya, keasyikan main line jelly. akhirnya waktu kebuang 15 menit-_-
ok, aku mandi semua udah siap termasuk jaket baseball kakak yang tebel itu..
aku berangkat sekolah kaga dianter lagi

di angkot orangnya annoy semua-_- pagi gue ternyata ga seterik matahari tapi se seliau matahari.
gimana ya,susah diungkapkan kalau pagi tadi aku seneng, seneng dari sisi mananya gatau.

*bahasanya campur campur kaga apalahya

gua masuk lab biologi, nyimpen tas yang ringan tapi jadi berat pas jaket dimasukin.
hari ini tas gue alay banget kaga tahan pinuh teu pararuguh.
gue upacara.. nyari doi,melangak melongok ke arah kelas dia. gua tau dia telat jadi ga gue cari lagi-_-
nyatanya dia emang telat..

pas upacara absurd banget, pengen marah temen gua bikin ngakak, udah kesel adanya cengos ada juga yang bikin malu nahan ketawa-_- ababil lah

upacara selesai,gurunya lagi tegas kali. siswa yang maen maen dimarahin, dan gue sama temen gue takut banget dimarahin soalnya kita ketawa-tawa.
pas kelas gue giliran masuk kelas, kelas gue aman dari ancaman tersebut guys.

kita semua masuk lab biologi, udah baca bismillah gue mau belajar-_- temen gua ada yang sibuk ngafalin buat ulangan, ada yang JP, ada yang ngobrol pake trakea-_- berisik dah kaya apa gitu.
ternyata ulangan kimia nya gampang. alhamdulillah..
terus waktunya pelajaran b.inggris, sialnya si mr nya itu bener bener ngomong 98% daripada nerangin materi. automaticly gua ngantuk max.

waktunya istirahat. waktunya refresh mata. gila ngeliat pacar gue langsung ketawa tawa sendiri, dia moodboster gue pagi itu. lv u so much ya pacarku!

gua makan bekal gue, kenyang banget faktor makan pake tangan plus baca doa -_-

akhirnya bel bunyi lagi, pelajaran matematika nih tumben tumbenan gua ga ngantuk. jadi gue cerdas siang tadi-_- cuma ya tetep lemot lah salah nulis soal-_-

pas pindah kelas lagi, udah lagi bete betenya, gue liat pacar gue lagi omg!
and i say "liat pacar aku ganteng"
meskipun dari jauh,gua liat elu seneng kok bey!!!!!!
dan, temen gue bilang "anterin kesana lah" yaudah gue anterin, lagian arahnya itu menuju pacar gue hehehe
seneng keuleus..
dan.. gue iseng nanyain flashdsik gue yang kayaknya impossible buat dia balikin-_-
dan pokoknya.. ah sudahlah gue sayang elu bey({})

terus jam pulang kan, gua ketemu temen ekskul gitu, karna kite kite bikin acara, so kita rapat kaga jelas yang ujung ujungnya gue disuruh nganter proposal sama temen gue berdua-_- dan itu more than absurd bro kita jalan menyelusuri daerah sekolah gue dan sekitarnya *samaruk adzan bro
dan ah.. pokoknya dari 8 proposal balik balik sisa 3. gayakan gue-_-

nah,terus gue sih ceritanya nunggu bbm dari emak gue biar pulang bareng so, gue nungguin beliau di sekolah sama temen gue yang kalo playlist mah suffle banget-_-
sama siapa ajadah yang penting ada temen.

Dan, disaat yang absurd kaya gini sesungguhnya gue pengen di temenin moodboster gue yang tadi pagi itu. dia abis dari sarangnya,dan dia langsung gaspol ke tempat les. so, dengan sangat kecewa gua bilang
"terus,ngapain ya aku nungguin kamu"
bego gua disitu..
udah pernah sih kaya gini
dan waktu itu justru lebih dramatis..
hujan,dingin, gua udah nungguin dia, pas disekolah gue dipanggil sama kakak kelas gue adalah yang naksir gue dan "dia" tau kakak kelas itu naksir gue. dan gue jadi inget satu tweet yang isinya
"I was jealous and felt scared when there are other people who make you more happier than i do"
gue mikir, apa saat itu dia mikir gitu? no i don't think so.
but, " I've seen you at your worst and I still think you're the best "
gua dibutakan..
dan alhamdulillah dia nge realize ini. mudah-mudahan gaada kata terlambat. amin

sekali ini saja

bersama mu..
ku lewati lebih dari 1000 malam
bersama mu
yang ku mau, namun kenyataannya tak sejalan
tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan, izinkan aku untuk mencintanya..

namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya, biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja..

bersama mu..
ku ku lewati 5 samudera
bersama mu
yang ku inginkan namun takdir kita berbeda

tuhan bila masih ku diberi waktu, izinkan aku untuk bersamanya

ku tak sanggup bila harus jujur, hidup tanpa hembusan nafasnya..

tuhan, bila waktu dapat berputar kembali, sekali lagi untuk mencintanya..
namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya,biarkan cinta ini..
hidup untuk sekali ini saja..

plan b

huh i'm blinded.
i will never know, how really are u love me.
i just, i just feel like i've stuck at the same time.
"it just feel right, cause i can love u more than this"- one direction.
there are 50 ways to say good bye but i wont
"u hurt me, but do i deserve this?"-maroon5
little by little, my heart are crushing.
but i always here to stay. i dont give up.
i just tired of all, now why
why the decision in my hands?
 "will u still be here tomorrow? or will u leave in the dead of the night?"-rebecca ferguson
i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know
what should i do ?!
first, i've waiting u. should i wait u for the second time?
why should i do this?
hollyshit. if i should go.
i never want this. i never ever want if that time was come to our love.
itu just like, bad dream goes to reality.
how hurt is it?
but,

lets talk

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause 
I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and 
I wanna talk to you 
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun 
Or write a song nobody has sung 
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete? 
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece? 
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language 
I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be? 
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done 
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
 Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
 Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk

if i were a boy

If I were a boyeven just for a dayI'd roll out of bed in the morningand throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guysand chase after girlsI'd kick it with who I wantedand I'd never get confronted for itcause they stick up for me
If I were a boyI think I could understandHow it feels to love a girlI swear I'd be a better manI'd listen to herCause I know how it hurtsWhen you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
(R. Kelly)If you were a boythen girl you'd understandyou need to stop listening to your friendslove, respect and trust your man
So I go to clubs with the guysand sometimes flirt with the girlsI should be able to roll outas long as Im coming home to youand give you the world
But you are not a boy,so you dont have a clue (ey)How I work and pay the billsgirl everything I do is for you (eh eh)
(Beyonce)I'd listen to herCause I know how it hurtsWhen you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
If I were a Boy (Beyonce)
If I were a Girl (Kelly)
I would turn off my phone (Beyonce)
I wouldn't play games (Kelly)
Tell everyone it's brokenso they'd think that I was sleeping alone (Beyonce)
Girl you know thats wrong (Kelly)

I’d put myself firstand make the rules as I goCause I know that she’ll be faithful,waiting for me to come home, to come home.
But you are not a boy,so you can't understandYou are not a perfect womanand I am not a perfect man (remix,remix)
I'd listen to her (eh eh)Cause I know how it hurts (Kelly: and I know how you feel)When you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
Kelly: Said Im sorry
It's a little too late for you to come back
but I cant let you gocause Im too attached (Kelly)
If you thought I would wait for youyou thought wrong
But you're just a boy

you're my only exception

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
Saat aku muda kulihat ayahku menangis
And curse at the wind
Dan mengutuk angin
He broke his own heart
Dia patah hati
And I watched As he tried to reassemble it
Dan kulihat saat dia berusaha merajutnya kembali
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
Dan ibuku bersumpah bahwa dia takkan pernah melupakan
And that was the day that I promised
Dan itulah hari dimana aku berjanji
I'd never sing of love
Aku takkan pernah menyanyikan cinta
If it does not exist
Bahwa tak ada cinta
But darlin'
Namun kasih

You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
Mungkin aku tahu, di suatu tempat di relung jiwaku
That love never lasts
Bahwa cinta takkan abadi
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Dan kita harus menemukan cara lain untuk mewujudkannya
Or keep a straight face
Atau terus berwajah dingin
And I've always lived like this
Dan aku selalu hidup begitu
Keeping a comfortable distance
Menjaga jarak
And up until now
Dan hingga kini
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
Aku telah bersumpah pada diriku sendiri bahwa aku puas
With loneliness
Dengan kesendirian
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Karena semua itu mudah dilakukan


I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't
Aku berpegang teguh pada kenyataan, namun aku tak dapat
Let go of what's in front of me here
Melepaskan apa yang di depanku kini
I know you're leaving in the morning
Aku tahu kau akan meninggalkanku di pagi hari
when you wake up
Saat kau bangun
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
Tinggalkan aku dengan bukti bahwa itu bukan mimpi


And I'm on my way to believing
Dan aku sedang berusaha percaya
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing
Oh, dan aku sedang berusaha percaya

sparks

Did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say,
You say, "Oh, sing one we know",
But I promise you this,
I'll always look out for you,
That's what I'll do.

I say "oh,"
I say "oh."

My heart is yours,
It's you that I hold on to,
That's what I do,
And I know I was wrong,
But I won't let you down,
(Oh yeah, yeah, yes I will)

I say "oh",
I cry "oh".

And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
Sing it out.

yellow

Look at the stars, 
Look how they shine for you,  
And everything you do,  
Yeah they were all yellow,
 
I came along 
I wrote a song for you 
And all the things you do 
And it was called yellow
 
So then I took my turn  
Oh all the things I've done 
And it was all yellow
 
Your skin  
Oh yeah your skin and bones 
Turn into something beautiful 
D'you know you know I love you so 
You know I love you so
 
I swam across  
I jumped across for you 


Oh all the things you do 
Cause you were all yellow
 
I drew a line  
I drew a line for you 
Oh what a thing to do 
And it was all yellow
 
Your skin 
Oh yeah your skin and bones  
Turn into something beautiful 
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry 
For you i bleed myself dry  
Its true look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine  
look at the stars 
look how they shine for you..

the scientsist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

apologize

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground 

 

And I'm hearing what you say

But I just can't make a sound

 

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down

But wait... 

 

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
 

That it's too late to apologize,

it's too late 

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late
 

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you 

And I need you like a heart needs a beat(But that's nothing new) 

Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue 

And you say 

 

Sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, 

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologizes, 

it's too late 

Woahooo woah
It's too late to apologize, 

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late 

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground