buta

pagi ini tuhya, tumben cerah panas, matahari pagi pagi udah terik aja
dimuali dengan bismillah dan berdoa semua lancar..
pagi bangun tidur bikin air,nyiapin bekal makan,terus solat..
biar dilancarin gitu tanggal 18 novembernya-_-
nah selesai solat,begonya, keasyikan main line jelly. akhirnya waktu kebuang 15 menit-_-
ok, aku mandi semua udah siap termasuk jaket baseball kakak yang tebel itu..
aku berangkat sekolah kaga dianter lagi

di angkot orangnya annoy semua-_- pagi gue ternyata ga seterik matahari tapi se seliau matahari.
gimana ya,susah diungkapkan kalau pagi tadi aku seneng, seneng dari sisi mananya gatau.

*bahasanya campur campur kaga apalahya

gua masuk lab biologi, nyimpen tas yang ringan tapi jadi berat pas jaket dimasukin.
hari ini tas gue alay banget kaga tahan pinuh teu pararuguh.
gue upacara.. nyari doi,melangak melongok ke arah kelas dia. gua tau dia telat jadi ga gue cari lagi-_-
nyatanya dia emang telat..

pas upacara absurd banget, pengen marah temen gua bikin ngakak, udah kesel adanya cengos ada juga yang bikin malu nahan ketawa-_- ababil lah

upacara selesai,gurunya lagi tegas kali. siswa yang maen maen dimarahin, dan gue sama temen gue takut banget dimarahin soalnya kita ketawa-tawa.
pas kelas gue giliran masuk kelas, kelas gue aman dari ancaman tersebut guys.

kita semua masuk lab biologi, udah baca bismillah gue mau belajar-_- temen gua ada yang sibuk ngafalin buat ulangan, ada yang JP, ada yang ngobrol pake trakea-_- berisik dah kaya apa gitu.
ternyata ulangan kimia nya gampang. alhamdulillah..
terus waktunya pelajaran b.inggris, sialnya si mr nya itu bener bener ngomong 98% daripada nerangin materi. automaticly gua ngantuk max.

waktunya istirahat. waktunya refresh mata. gila ngeliat pacar gue langsung ketawa tawa sendiri, dia moodboster gue pagi itu. lv u so much ya pacarku!

gua makan bekal gue, kenyang banget faktor makan pake tangan plus baca doa -_-

akhirnya bel bunyi lagi, pelajaran matematika nih tumben tumbenan gua ga ngantuk. jadi gue cerdas siang tadi-_- cuma ya tetep lemot lah salah nulis soal-_-

pas pindah kelas lagi, udah lagi bete betenya, gue liat pacar gue lagi omg!
and i say "liat pacar aku ganteng"
meskipun dari jauh,gua liat elu seneng kok bey!!!!!!
dan, temen gue bilang "anterin kesana lah" yaudah gue anterin, lagian arahnya itu menuju pacar gue hehehe
seneng keuleus..
dan.. gue iseng nanyain flashdsik gue yang kayaknya impossible buat dia balikin-_-
dan pokoknya.. ah sudahlah gue sayang elu bey({})

terus jam pulang kan, gua ketemu temen ekskul gitu, karna kite kite bikin acara, so kita rapat kaga jelas yang ujung ujungnya gue disuruh nganter proposal sama temen gue berdua-_- dan itu more than absurd bro kita jalan menyelusuri daerah sekolah gue dan sekitarnya *samaruk adzan bro
dan ah.. pokoknya dari 8 proposal balik balik sisa 3. gayakan gue-_-

nah,terus gue sih ceritanya nunggu bbm dari emak gue biar pulang bareng so, gue nungguin beliau di sekolah sama temen gue yang kalo playlist mah suffle banget-_-
sama siapa ajadah yang penting ada temen.

Dan, disaat yang absurd kaya gini sesungguhnya gue pengen di temenin moodboster gue yang tadi pagi itu. dia abis dari sarangnya,dan dia langsung gaspol ke tempat les. so, dengan sangat kecewa gua bilang
"terus,ngapain ya aku nungguin kamu"
bego gua disitu..
udah pernah sih kaya gini
dan waktu itu justru lebih dramatis..
hujan,dingin, gua udah nungguin dia, pas disekolah gue dipanggil sama kakak kelas gue adalah yang naksir gue dan "dia" tau kakak kelas itu naksir gue. dan gue jadi inget satu tweet yang isinya
"I was jealous and felt scared when there are other people who make you more happier than i do"
gue mikir, apa saat itu dia mikir gitu? no i don't think so.
but, " I've seen you at your worst and I still think you're the best "
gua dibutakan..
dan alhamdulillah dia nge realize ini. mudah-mudahan gaada kata terlambat. amin

sekali ini saja

bersama mu..
ku lewati lebih dari 1000 malam
bersama mu
yang ku mau, namun kenyataannya tak sejalan
tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan, izinkan aku untuk mencintanya..

namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya, biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja..

bersama mu..
ku ku lewati 5 samudera
bersama mu
yang ku inginkan namun takdir kita berbeda

tuhan bila masih ku diberi waktu, izinkan aku untuk bersamanya

ku tak sanggup bila harus jujur, hidup tanpa hembusan nafasnya..

tuhan, bila waktu dapat berputar kembali, sekali lagi untuk mencintanya..
namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya,biarkan cinta ini..
hidup untuk sekali ini saja..

plan b

huh i'm blinded.
i will never know, how really are u love me.
i just, i just feel like i've stuck at the same time.
"it just feel right, cause i can love u more than this"- one direction.
there are 50 ways to say good bye but i wont
"u hurt me, but do i deserve this?"-maroon5
little by little, my heart are crushing.
but i always here to stay. i dont give up.
i just tired of all, now why
why the decision in my hands?
 "will u still be here tomorrow? or will u leave in the dead of the night?"-rebecca ferguson
i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know i do not know
what should i do ?!
first, i've waiting u. should i wait u for the second time?
why should i do this?
hollyshit. if i should go.
i never want this. i never ever want if that time was come to our love.
itu just like, bad dream goes to reality.
how hurt is it?
but,

lets talk

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause 
I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and 
I wanna talk to you 
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun 
Or write a song nobody has sung 
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete? 
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece? 
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language 
I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be? 
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done 
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
 Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
 Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk

if i were a boy

If I were a boyeven just for a dayI'd roll out of bed in the morningand throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guysand chase after girlsI'd kick it with who I wantedand I'd never get confronted for itcause they stick up for me
If I were a boyI think I could understandHow it feels to love a girlI swear I'd be a better manI'd listen to herCause I know how it hurtsWhen you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
(R. Kelly)If you were a boythen girl you'd understandyou need to stop listening to your friendslove, respect and trust your man
So I go to clubs with the guysand sometimes flirt with the girlsI should be able to roll outas long as Im coming home to youand give you the world
But you are not a boy,so you dont have a clue (ey)How I work and pay the billsgirl everything I do is for you (eh eh)
(Beyonce)I'd listen to herCause I know how it hurtsWhen you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
If I were a Boy (Beyonce)
If I were a Girl (Kelly)
I would turn off my phone (Beyonce)
I wouldn't play games (Kelly)
Tell everyone it's brokenso they'd think that I was sleeping alone (Beyonce)
Girl you know thats wrong (Kelly)

I’d put myself firstand make the rules as I goCause I know that she’ll be faithful,waiting for me to come home, to come home.
But you are not a boy,so you can't understandYou are not a perfect womanand I am not a perfect man (remix,remix)
I'd listen to her (eh eh)Cause I know how it hurts (Kelly: and I know how you feel)When you lose the one you wantedCause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed
Kelly: Said Im sorry
It's a little too late for you to come back
but I cant let you gocause Im too attached (Kelly)
If you thought I would wait for youyou thought wrong
But you're just a boy

you're my only exception

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
Saat aku muda kulihat ayahku menangis
And curse at the wind
Dan mengutuk angin
He broke his own heart
Dia patah hati
And I watched As he tried to reassemble it
Dan kulihat saat dia berusaha merajutnya kembali
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
Dan ibuku bersumpah bahwa dia takkan pernah melupakan
And that was the day that I promised
Dan itulah hari dimana aku berjanji
I'd never sing of love
Aku takkan pernah menyanyikan cinta
If it does not exist
Bahwa tak ada cinta
But darlin'
Namun kasih

You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu
You are the only exception
Kecuali dirimu

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
Mungkin aku tahu, di suatu tempat di relung jiwaku
That love never lasts
Bahwa cinta takkan abadi
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Dan kita harus menemukan cara lain untuk mewujudkannya
Or keep a straight face
Atau terus berwajah dingin
And I've always lived like this
Dan aku selalu hidup begitu
Keeping a comfortable distance
Menjaga jarak
And up until now
Dan hingga kini
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
Aku telah bersumpah pada diriku sendiri bahwa aku puas
With loneliness
Dengan kesendirian
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Karena semua itu mudah dilakukan


I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't
Aku berpegang teguh pada kenyataan, namun aku tak dapat
Let go of what's in front of me here
Melepaskan apa yang di depanku kini
I know you're leaving in the morning
Aku tahu kau akan meninggalkanku di pagi hari
when you wake up
Saat kau bangun
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
Tinggalkan aku dengan bukti bahwa itu bukan mimpi


And I'm on my way to believing
Dan aku sedang berusaha percaya
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing
Oh, dan aku sedang berusaha percaya

sparks

Did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say,
You say, "Oh, sing one we know",
But I promise you this,
I'll always look out for you,
That's what I'll do.

I say "oh,"
I say "oh."

My heart is yours,
It's you that I hold on to,
That's what I do,
And I know I was wrong,
But I won't let you down,
(Oh yeah, yeah, yes I will)

I say "oh",
I cry "oh".

And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
Sing it out.

yellow

Look at the stars, 
Look how they shine for you,  
And everything you do,  
Yeah they were all yellow,
 
I came along 
I wrote a song for you 
And all the things you do 
And it was called yellow
 
So then I took my turn  
Oh all the things I've done 
And it was all yellow
 
Your skin  
Oh yeah your skin and bones 
Turn into something beautiful 
D'you know you know I love you so 
You know I love you so
 
I swam across  
I jumped across for you 


Oh all the things you do 
Cause you were all yellow
 
I drew a line  
I drew a line for you 
Oh what a thing to do 
And it was all yellow
 
Your skin 
Oh yeah your skin and bones  
Turn into something beautiful 
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry 
For you i bleed myself dry  
Its true look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you  
look how they shine  
look at the stars 
look how they shine for you..

the scientsist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

apologize

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground 

 

And I'm hearing what you say

But I just can't make a sound

 

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down

But wait... 

 

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
 

That it's too late to apologize,

it's too late 

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late
 

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you 

And I need you like a heart needs a beat(But that's nothing new) 

Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue 

And you say 

 

Sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, 

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologizes, 

it's too late 

Woahooo woah
It's too late to apologize, 

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late 

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground

 

 

hhahahahahahahahahaha

cause with your in my hand a pocket full of soul
i can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
just put your hand on the past,i'm here tryin to pull your trough
you just gotta be strong

cause i don't wanna lose you now
i'm lookin right at the other half of me
the vacancy sat in my heart
is a space that now you hold
show me how to fight for no
and i'll twll you aby it was easy
comin' bck into your once i figured it out
you were right here all along

it's like you're my mirror
my mirror staring back at me
i couldn't get any bigger
with anyone else beside of me
and now it's clear as this promise
that we're makin two reflection into one

it's like you my mirror
my mirror staring back at me..

justin timberlake - mirror

_____________________________________

lookin back to the thing i've done
i was tryin to be someone
i played my part
kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart..

im here wuth ny confession
got nothing to hide no more
i don't know where to start
 but to show you the shape of my heart...............

i'm lookin back on the thins i've done
i never wanna play the same old part
i'll kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart..

backstreet boys - shape of my heart

baca ajalah galau

she's all laid up in bed with a broken  heart...
while i'm drinking jack in my local bar..
and we don't know how...

how we got into this mad situation only doing things out of frustation
trying to make it work but man it's time are hard..

she needs me now but i can't seem to find the time
i got a new job now on the unemployment line
and we don't know how.....................
how we got into this mess,is it God test?
some one help us cause we're doing our best
trying to make things work but man these time are hard.

but we're gonna stop by drinking our cheap bottles of wine
sit talking up all night,saying things we heaven't for a while
we're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
we just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

she's in line at the dole with her head held high
while i just lost my job but didn't lose my pride
and we both now how
how we're going to make it work when it hurts
when you pick your self up you gt kicked to the dirt
tryin to make it work but man these time are hard

______________________________________________________________


OH THESE TIME ARE HARD YEAH THEY MAKING US CRAZY DON'T GIVE UP ON ME BABY


the script- for the fist time

what is that?

world is not paradise
life is not a toll road
love is not a chocolate
pray is not shopping
work is not relaxing on the beach
school is not watching tv


"so? the world is?"

The world is ...
where we are living, breathing, learning, struggling, find for a reward in the Hereafter, and trying.


"how about life?"

 life
Life is a struggle, hard work, grateful for every breath
our life is not as smooth as the road toll, sometimes a lot of our tires hit the gravel.
life is like a wheel, and there are times when we are on, and there are times when we are under
Life lessons, we learn to live and understand the true meaning of life
Life is a struggle, striving to be beneficial to the world
Seek and give life
search for meaning in life, looking for a gift for later
provide the best for them all, no matter returns
God's infinite justice gives life to us

Life was like you should have been born into the world



"what is the meaning of love? why'd you say that 'love does not like chocolate?"

because love is not brown
love is part of living
love is not as good and sweet as chocolate
the same from the first taste to the chocolate we eat it up,
it tastes sweet chocolate. but it is not as sweet love
just love it as a salad
when we get a fruit that tastes sweet, we enjoy it
but not by the time we get fruit that tastes sour.

love is giving, pursue your love. he did not care or do not care about you, no matter what your love reply


 "Why did you say that 'pray is not shopping'?"

because it does not pray shopping
to be honest, sometimes we are lazy to pray according as the time allowed
and some of you definitely think "later, it's a waste of time. let's go, we hurry up"
but it is not, it's time wasted behind there are so many silver lining
did you know that?
pray also very helpful to us in every way
we should pray wherever we are
praying for salvation in the afterlife

pray that God will remind


 "What do you mean by 'work is not relaxing on the beach'?"

work was not to relax
work that is struggling
work to get something that we want
The work must be done sincerely and large businesses
to be successful, we need work
work with earnest heart, working with great intentions
work to be the best, and provide the best no matter the return

was working hard to be the best in order to get the best

"indeed, what the purpose of the 'school is not watching tv'?"

school is also not to relax
indeed frankly we definitely think "lazy for school"
think ..
school was a place to socialize, a place that came not knowing to knowing, finding something new place
just enjoy your school lessons
and sometimes we get a ranking schools
and to be honest, when we got the ranking, which is where we are now so condescending, proud, arrogant, and relax for what you receive

so, do not be careless. because when we were there to relax over 1 million people are attempting to seize Rank

 

 

 

 

do the best,be the best from the best. The world knows what is best for you

move?or stay?

GIVE ME A REASON

dari lagu give me a reasonnya pink feat nate ruess

  Right from the startYou were a thief You stole my heart And I your willing victim I let you see the parts of me That were not all that pretty And with every touch you fixed them Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh Things you never say to me oh oh Tell me that you've had enough Of our love, our love.

; Kanan dari awal Kau pencuri Kau mencuri hatiku Dan aku korban bersedia Anda Aku membiarkan Anda melihat bagian-bagian diriku Itu tidak semua yang cantik Dan dengan setiap sentuhan Anda tetap mereka Sekarang Anda telah berbicara dalam tidurmu oh oh Hal-hal yang tidak pernah mengatakan kepada saya oh oh Katakan bahwa Anda sudah cukup Cinta kita, cinta kita

 Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again

; Hanya memberi saya alasan Hanya sedikit cukup Hanya kedua kita tidak rusak hanya bengkok Dan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagi Ada dalam bintang Sudah ditulis di bekas luka di hati kita Kami tidak rusak hanya membungkuk Dan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagi

 I'm sorry I do not understand Where all of this is coming from I thought that we were fine (Oh, we had everything) Your head is running wild again My dear we still have everythin 'And it's all in your mind (Yeah but this is happenin ') You've been havin 'a real bad dreams oh oh You used to lie so close to me oh oh There's nothing more than empty sheets Between our love, our love Oh our love, our love

; Maaf saya tidak mengerti Dari imana semua ini datang Saya berpikir bahwa kita baik-baik saja (Oh, kami memiliki segala sesuatu) Kepala Anda berjalan liar lagi Sayangku kita masih memiliki segalanya Dan itu semua dalam pikiran Anda (Yeah, tapi ini terjadi di sini) Anda telah bersenang 'sebuah mimpi buruk yang nyata oh oh Anda biasanya berbaring begitu dekat dengan saya oh oh Tidak ada yang lebih dari lembar kosong Antara cinta kita, cinta kita Oh cinta kita, cinta kita

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

;Hanya memberi saya alasanHanya sedikit cukupHanya kedua kita tidak rusak hanya bengkokDan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagiAku tidak pernah berhentiAnda masih ditulis dalam bekas luka di hatikuKau tidak rusak hanya membungkukDan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagi

Oh tear ducts and rust I'll fix it for us We're collecting dust But our love's enough You're holding it in You're pouring a drink No nothing is as bad as it seems We'll come clean

;Oh merobek saluran dan karat Aku akan memperbaikinya bagi kita Kami mengumpulkan debu Tapi cinta kita cukup Anda memegangnya di Anda menuangkan minuman Tidak ada yang seburuk tampaknya Kami akan datang bersih


 
 It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts That we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again Oh, we can learn to love again Oh, we can learn to love again Oh oh, that we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again

; Ada dalam bintang Sudah ditulis di bekas luka di hati kita Bahwa kita tidak rusak hanya membungkuk Dan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagi Oh, kita dapat belajar untuk mencintai lagi Oh, kita dapat belajar untuk mencintai lagi Oh oh, bahwa kita tidak rusak hanya membungkuk Dan kita bisa belajar untuk mencintai lagi





i hpoe we can bbe like that..

timing

waktu
hanya waktu yang tidak tepat
waktu yang mempertemukan dan mengembalikan kalian
sayangnya waktu tersebut sangat tidak tepat
entah mengapa..

aku tak tau cinta macam apa ini

aku tidak ingin memberi harapan palsu lagi
tapi aku memang masih ingin bersamanya
tapi aku memang tidak bisa bersama dia lagi
tapi aku ingin menghargai semua usahanya

tapi aku hanya bisa memilih satu..
dan aku tidak tahu mana yang harus aku pilih
dan sekarang aku berada dalam kebimbangan terbesar dalam hidupku

aku harap semuanya mengerti
tapi aku tau,kalian tidak akan tau apa yang ada di blackberry messenger  ku
jika kalian tau? apa yang ada
aku akan menanyakan,
harus bagaimana diriku?
harus pilih yang mana?
harus seperti apa?

bimbang itu adalah sesuatu yang memberatkan

aku tak tau persis,
yang pasti ini adalah salahku?
atau waktu yang salah?

aku salah memilih dia,begitupun denganmu yang salah memilihnya
keputusanmu itu membuat semua nya jadi penyesalan
sekarang entah dimana dan entah sedang apa dirimu
entah apa yang harus aku lakukan sekarang
entah akan seperti apa kedepannya
dan entah apa yang harus kita lakukan dengan semua takdir dan waktu yang kita miliki.

masihkah ada rasa yang dulu ada?
masihkah ada waktu yang kita butuhkan?
masihkah ada kesempatan?

akankah penyesalan ini berlalu begitu saja?
akankah kita hanya terdiam membiarkan semuanya berlalu?
akankah kita memiliki rasa yang sama lagi?

dimanakah aku harus mencarimu?
dimanakah aku bisa mendapatkanmu kembali?
dimanakah aku bisa menemukanmu?

sungguh,
aku tak mau mendapatkan kamu bersama orang lain
aku tak mau kehilanganmu
tapi apa yang bisa aku lakukan?

 

someone

kau,seseorang yang takkan ku lupakan
meskipun usiaku termakan oleh waktu
kau,seseorang yang selalu ada di fikiranku
kau masih mencuri hatiku,meskipun kau lebih memilih seseorang
dan kau memilih cinta yang salah..

banyak orang berkata padaku..
"kenapa kamu harus galauin dia sih? cowo kan banyak"
you're the only one.

aku mengenalmu cukup baik
tapi tidak dengan semua orang yang hanya so tau.
aku fikir kau sempurna bagi seorang sepertiku,
bahkan kau lebih sempurna dari apa yang aku fikirkan.
aku tak sanggup membiarkanmu pergi

kau,terlalu berharga untukku,
semua orang menganggapmu hayalah seorang yang beruntung mendapatkan perempuan yang tidak memilih yang lebih baik darimu.
bagiku tidak..

aku menyayangimu lebih dari apa yang kau tahu
aku menyayangimu lebih dari apa yang selalu kau sebut
aku menyayangimu lebih dari apa yang berharga bagimu
aku tak tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan disini tanpa mu?

tapi kau meninggalkan ku begitu saja,dengan semua kenangan dan janji kita yang belum kita tepati..

saat itu,
aku memang memintamu tetap disini,bersamaku
dan kau memberiku kesempatan
dan aku hanya mengatakan 
"jika aku gagal,tolong ajari aku untuk melupakan semuanya."
dan aku hanya bisa menangis
dan kau tidak melakukannya,
meskipun aku berhasil membuatmu merasa senang.
tapi aku pun tak tega melihat kau tidak bahagia denganku,
dengan penuh keyakinan meskipun sakit,aku membiarkan kamu pergi.

dan aku hanya berharap kau dapat kembali   

remind me 


untuk seseorang yang entah kapan dia akan kembali,atau bahkan dia takkan lagi mengenalku...

disaat kita bersama,aku melihatmu.
dengan tatapan yang penuh akan pemikiran-pemikiran tentangmu
hai kau,yang ku kenal
meskipun sebenarnya waktu kita tidak ada apa-apanya,
tapi aku bersyukur sempat memilikimu...
melihatu dengan semua tingkah lakumu,
mebuatku merasakan hal baru
senang,sedih,kecewa,tangis,haru,tawa,dan lain-lain
kau membuatku merasakan semuanya..
jika kau ingin mengetahui apa sebenarnya yang selalu ada di fikiranku setiap aku melihatmu..

aku selalu berfikir...
terimakasih tuhan,
telah mempertemukan aku dengan nya
telah memberi waktu untuk kami bersama dengan semua permasalahan dan kesenangan
telah memberiku banyak pelajaran yang dia bisa ajarkan
telah memberi kami semua rasa itu.

tapi semua itu telah berlalu

kini yang bisa ku lakukan hanyalah terdiam,
melihat sang takdir memisahkan kita...
dan yang ku mau hanyalah sang takdir juga yang mempertemukan kita kembali
jujur,aku hanya bisa menangis disini..
terdiam,dan merasa bodoh

dan ku harap hanyalah,kau takkan melupakan "kita"

 first Love forever Love..

"pernah ada seseorang yang mencintaiku dengan segenap jiwanya"



jika saat itu aku punya keberanian 
cinta kita pasti tak akan berakhir seperti ini,
jika saat itu kamu gigih,
kisah kita pasti tidak akan menjadi begini

cinta pertama telah menorehkan 
luka dihatiku..
menyisakan malam-malam 
penuh derai air mata,
mengingatkanku selalu
kepadamu..
pada cinta kita..

kita sering tidak mengerti
apakah yang dinamakan cinta
sulu aku selalu berfikir,
cinta kita bisa melampaui segalanya..
saat itu aku tak tau bahwa,
sesungguhnya,ternyata ada 
kekuatan yang lebih dari cinta.
kekuatan takdir...
kita tidak bisa melakukan apapun
untuk mengubahnya..
dan hanya bisa menerimanya..


sebelum menyesal,hargailah rasa sayang seseorang padamu..
cintailah dia sepenuh hatimu..
karena, "suatu hari kau akan menyadari,bahwa dia yang akan selalu ada untukmu"